came out of the house at saturday around afternoon? slack abit. thought to myself, today i'll do anything to be happy. and i guess i did? it was nice. 3 people who have sorrows in life... we didnt think of anything.. spent all my 80 i saved for her.. felt bad. but she dont care. she dont even wana go out now. so ya. keep cant pray, no use wan. spent it. went to buy stuff, enjoyed it much.. slacked talk and laughed like mad ppl. time flew pass.. it was around night 9 or 10. we got bored. went condo, slack. hear songs. did stuff we liked together.. happy for that time.. she didnt even bother anything.. felt damn .. nvm. than went down supper. eat alr, went down serangoon garden.. my old places. long time never go. pon keep saying that __ is there.. so i got irritated and we went. place was closed. great. relieved. can be happy again. go 7 eleven. buy cookies and cream. eat outside. police went pass. nearly wanted to fight with 2 gangsters. stupid ppl. got girl beside than wan act. lame ppl. walk and walk. it was a high night. we walked back to condo to ton there with our stuff. we walked.. felt like we were ppl with no problems for that point of time. sat in the middle of road. damn quiet.. peaceful..

went back condo talk together.. we were like, nobody cares for us now. even if they did, it felt like a damn lie. soon the time became 8 plus. dad call. dont care. she called. dont even feel like picking up cause she'll just say something to kill me. ltr the stupid pon pick up. talk. say she miss me. it was like a lie to just get me home. nah. i knew. she just lied anyway. i went home at 12 plus i guess? go home. told why i was away.. everyone told its my fault for doing that. i know it too okay? when u all can say i did that so much, why cant u all just trust me that i've changed?when nobody trust u in ur life, it reli as no meaning anymore. if the people u love dont cares, that feels worst.. anyway came home went out again to study for the sake of her.. read book awhile fell asleep. didnt sleep for so long. went home.. changed.. slept. for i thought i could get some attention from her, i did. but in a wrong way. she called me an ungrateful kid. check her blog. its about me (: great post right? haha. i still relaxed. i talked nicely. didnt i? but she didnt even bother wad i did, who i was with and so. i went to sleep alr. school, sucked. scolded chem tcher. till she dont dare shout at me and talk nicely. im sorry SH chua. and sorry to jane cheng. sorry to her. sorry to everyone. if u people were me, u would do worse.. im sorry bi..