Wednesday, April 29, 2009
my life is like getting from bad to worse .
first in Bowen life , it all started with cases in the school .
small cases . started like , never bring book . never do homework .
than this continues and so .
slowly cases gets bigger .
started with a , like er , long hair . got caught by Ms Normala and so .
and she cuts it . there goes my hair . than cases like fihgting .
it happened right after exam when i was in sec 1 .
i fought with a guy called , Lankun .
he was 16 or 17 ? he came from china . so elder luhs .
than got into discipline and so .
than next was like er , if im not wrong was also fighting ?
than followed by a smoking case by HSA(health science authorities)
the letter was sent to school . and i did not know about it. they sent it to my home to.
and so , this year , caught with a fight once again .
beat up a boy Raj from india .
he was like 1 year elder than me . i not sure 1 or 2 years luhs.
than , beat him till worse than all fights i got . this was the worse so far !
and i thought why am i hurting ppl ? so i changed.
tried to be a better person .
but when i change , i realised things happening around me .
people are like taking revenge against me . i did not get angry .
people treated me not the way they usually treat me.
i took it normally , and slowly , ppl left me 1 by 1 .
i was left with my Amanda .
She was always there for me when i needed someone .
She was like evrything to me . and when time changes.
she also had problems with her frens . and all were apart .
and today , all were back tgt . i dont get the same company as i get normally like last time .
after she had her frens . she needs to make time out for both .
i understand . she is also stress in making time for both .
so i took it normally and was happy . but realise , it gets worse .
more things changes . and i duno why .
im sorry for today . did not know u were in a bad mood .
scolded u for fun .and u got angry . im really sorry .
but i dont understand why .
im in the wrong .
im always in the wrong . thats whhy i told u in the start , ' I'm a failure. '
i cant never make ppl happy . although i try .
i can nvr achieve something i really try for . im just a idiot who knows how to be clown,
but do not know how to keep my girlfriend happy ):
im really very sorry .
