Mr.DeelanR. (:

2010-08-15T05:38:00.000-07:00

not blogging here anymore.

2010-07-31T07:26:00.000-07:00

you guys should learn how to appreciate what she did..

2010-07-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

is caring for the person you love a crime too?

2010-07-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

seriously how long can i live for? nobody knows.

well, i have quit smoking. don't wish to spent money to spoil my health. same goes for, DRINKING. life seems same. life, is scary.. i duno what im going to get next now.. even till now im affected on what happened that day.. somethings hurt alot. cause i have never felt like this my entire life. 15 yrs in this earth, not one day, i felt like this. not blaming. but, im telling how much you're important to me..

well, nobody knows how it is like to walk in my shoes..

2010-07-04T11:04:00.000-07:00

i aint rich. i dont go to fancy restuarants. i dont wear branded.
im a ordinary guy who studies with help of FAS.
but did i ask for too much? all i ever wanted was your heart in my life..

2010-06-30T07:22:00.000-07:00

firstly, sheila lanjiao lee is a bitch.
secondly, im lucky today. dorothy didnt care. police came. alsos didnt care.
jiajie saw me. haha. alot of ppl were looking. damn. but i love serangoon police and hate hougang police.
lastly, came out evening, slack with serangoon people.

2010-06-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

many things happen. bad more than good. well, its not nice to say here.
but some things make me happy today (:
im in sec 1 again. feel like. trying to enjoy during recess.
was fun.
after school, went out. evening, chit chat about it.
talked about his case. prison. gang. rioting. police. fight. theft.
so many cases a teenager can have. well, past right?
no more rubbish. wana prove to people i can do it (:
mostly her though.
its time to be serious. gotta work hard now till i graduate.
said it in my fb (: haha.
less than half an hour and i got 5 ppl liking it!
damn wierd! haha.
i love it!

2010-06-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

i lied.. even though i dont bother u, when im sick, first person i expected to see beside me was you..
but i didnt. you were not there. well, wad can i say ?
you got better friends there with you other than me right?
enjoy.

2010-05-26T10:57:00.000-07:00

thanks dingju..

2010-05-23T09:01:00.001-07:00

anyone can loan me cash? financial problem.
urgent cash needed. my bike is being sold too!
buy any part from it. i dont care u wan wad. just buy! got money to loan or wan buy, contact me at 90066018.
help me!!!

2010-05-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

fight. punch. blood. swollen lip. the end.

2010-05-17T14:37:00.000-07:00

http://www.20incho.com/chat1/YaBB.pl?num=1273953034

well, gotta wait now.

2010-05-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

gotta earn trust ! norvan and co are going to ecp ltr. im staying at home. should i go out for a walk? hell boring at home. should i go to school? school = her . good i can see her, but wad if , IF something happen and the hole gets bigger? trying to close it up everyday.. well, i'll just build back the trust..

2010-05-15T12:53:00.000-07:00

well, love is all about sacrifice..

actions speak louder than words right?

so ya. im quitting riding now.

heard wad jy had to say too. thanks for being open.

selling off this stupid bike which cause so much problems to her.

not letting go for below 1.7k

offer me at 90066018.

greatly appreciated if its gone faster..

2010-05-13T07:20:00.000-07:00

sometimes u just gotta stay away from your loved ones and not irritate them. the easiest way is, sitting by a roadside with a mineral water.

2010-05-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

took it out. dont meant to hurt. wan some attention. duno how. lost. confused.
help me.

2010-05-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

came out of the house at saturday around afternoon? slack abit. thought to myself, today i'll do anything to be happy. and i guess i did? it was nice. 3 people who have sorrows in life... we didnt think of anything.. spent all my 80 i saved for her.. felt bad. but she dont care. she dont even wana go out now. so ya. keep cant pray, no use wan. spent it. went to buy stuff, enjoyed it much.. slacked talk and laughed like mad ppl. time flew pass.. it was around night 9 or 10. we got bored. went condo, slack. hear songs. did stuff we liked together.. happy for that time.. she didnt even bother anything.. felt damn .. nvm. than went down supper. eat alr, went down serangoon garden.. my old places. long time never go. pon keep saying that __ is there.. so i got irritated and we went. place was closed. great. relieved. can be happy again. go 7 eleven. buy cookies and cream. eat outside. police went pass. nearly wanted to fight with 2 gangsters. stupid ppl. got girl beside than wan act. lame ppl. walk and walk. it was a high night. we walked back to condo to ton there with our stuff. we walked.. felt like we were ppl with no problems for that point of time. sat in the middle of road. damn quiet.. peaceful..

went back condo talk together.. we were like, nobody cares for us now. even if they did, it felt like a damn lie. soon the time became 8 plus. dad call. dont care. she called. dont even feel like picking up cause she'll just say something to kill me. ltr the stupid pon pick up. talk. say she miss me. it was like a lie to just get me home. nah. i knew. she just lied anyway. i went home at 12 plus i guess? go home. told why i was away.. everyone told its my fault for doing that. i know it too okay? when u all can say i did that so much, why cant u all just trust me that i've changed?when nobody trust u in ur life, it reli as no meaning anymore. if the people u love dont cares, that feels worst.. anyway came home went out again to study for the sake of her.. read book awhile fell asleep. didnt sleep for so long. went home.. changed.. slept. for i thought i could get some attention from her, i did. but in a wrong way. she called me an ungrateful kid. check her blog. its about me (: great post right? haha. i still relaxed. i talked nicely. didnt i? but she didnt even bother wad i did, who i was with and so. i went to sleep alr. school, sucked. scolded chem tcher. till she dont dare shout at me and talk nicely. im sorry SH chua. and sorry to jane cheng. sorry to her. sorry to everyone. if u people were me, u would do worse.. im sorry bi..

2010-04-30T13:38:00.000-07:00

time, 4.46am. cant sleep. damn. u know how it burns?
im reli paying a very high price. and today, for the first time i got scolded that i was a fucking irritating guy..
u know how it felt? it felt as if i got stabbed in the heart.
i still talked and begged and begged and begged..
u know wad was next? it goes like this, u know i can file a report of threatening?
that felt worse. i stopped it. i told a week and no longer. thats the promise a week. so just restart it. i never msged or wad from 4 until now. but i got send 2. becus i reli veryvery scared.. thats all.. trust there will be fine.. anyway, now im currently being called names which suit me last time and not now, examples will be, ' skimmer, fucker, betrayer, evil bastard, fucking irritating guy, useless, thoughtless, heartless etc. people are calling me names like this. well my life sucks right now. the ' jie ' also hate me when i never offend her. everyone hates me. mum never talks to me. dad no time to see his face also. sister, mia? im currently like a street dog(: finding for food. haha. wad happens if there is no food? bye forever(: i wont get in ppl's way since everyone hates me so much. and theres no one to help me out too. hmm.. A's enjoying life everyday (: enjoy everyone. need cash. any work anyone? i no money for lunch all alr ): job please!

2010-04-30T11:36:00.000-07:00

waiting for friday now.. why must my life now be like this? dont u think its too much for me? why suddenly u became heartless? u changed alot.. u were not a person i got in sec 1.. im sorry for things i done too. im just waiting for friday.. know u wont do wad i dont like. trust u..

2010-04-21T03:23:00.001-07:00

I love you more each day
I miss you, every hour of the day
Longing to touch and feel you
To see you once again…

You told me you'd stay forever
That you’d love me and leave me never
But now it seems I’ve lost you
You've left me all alone..

Why did you ever have to go?
Why does my heart feel so alone?
I cannot face another day without you
Please come back to me…

I long to have you here with me
I miss the days when you are with me
Those happy times I'll cherish
My memories of you can't be erased...

I can never face the world alone
Without you by my side..
Please come back to me…

When can I hold you once again?
When can I hug you again?
When can I kiss you again?

I love it when i sleep on your lap and u stroke my head..
I love it when u hug me when im crying..
but not anymore now..

Please come back to me
I shall never breathe again
I will never love again
For my heart belongs to you..

Would you mend my broken heart?
Would you wipe my tears away?
Would you brighten up my day?
Would you just come back to me?

2010-04-21T02:15:00.001-07:00

i was so stupid. my life was all about bike last time and i didnt even gave a thought about her.. now i reli regret everything.. i dont feel like riding anymore. i just one her by my side.. god, grant me this last wish in my life.

2010-04-21T02:12:00.001-07:00

please just come back to me ..

2010-04-21T02:10:00.000-07:00

how do u feel if someone does not wan to go out with u and tell u the person is tired or something but ltr the person is out with some other ppl?

2010-04-17T21:58:00.001-07:00

i tried everything i could.. i tried to prove it things in every way.. but its just no use.. i spiked my hair like u used to like, i bought her flowers, i begged, i did everything i could.. i even sent 7 msg together 6 times.. thats a total of 56 msges i send.. i took more than an hour doing it.. but in the morning , i realise the msges just went down the drain.. i really duno wad to do anymore.. wish i can eat like normal now.. dont wish to be lying in hospital or wadever .. stupid life of mine..

2010-04-12T06:22:00.000-07:00

last time i smiled joyfully was on last wednesday.. well, some times u see ppl around u happy, u will be happy. not normal people, but people u love. hope ure happy without me now .. enjoy ur life my .... nvm.

2010-03-19T03:45:00.000-07:00

morning went to ecp to ride awhile cause afternoon i wanted to go down and meet baby. ride till tired. went home. was waiting for cab. the cab very long.
i left that 2 guys there and rode back home myself just to meet baby.
in the end, on the way i msged her, she said, ' im going to grandma house. '
so i actually was stupid. didnt know she went there. she didnt told me she going either. so got wet in today's heavy rain. damn wet and disgusted. i saw sand on my pants and t-shirt. it was disgusting. changed my shirt half way and went home.
the end.

2010-03-10T06:34:00.000-08:00

monday
went amk to make a short clip on riding.
my first video. so this is the url. i come in some parts only.
i helped to take the videos and so.
so check it out!
http://vimeo.com/10012912
this is about monday. came home about 11.
sleep, next day alr.
come school. bored. go home. slack. get peg. go home. msg. blablabla.
today even boring. wish to make more videos.
stay tuned.

2010-02-24T05:42:00.000-08:00

so this is the fork. like it please sms 90066018(:

2010-02-19T04:31:00.000-08:00

damm it. i got a pedal slip today. haha. pain shit. pics above.
gave baby 50 today(:
tmr needa go her house take my bag. than i should be going to visit the streets.
nothing much to say. nobody usually reads properly wad u written anyway.
gotta go.

2010-02-11T06:39:00.001-08:00

thought of going ecp tmr! but nobody wana go. so sadd.
so not going. troubled her alot lately.
dunno should i ride or just stay with her.
hmmm, i will have lunch with her at least.
trying to be calm. (:
mayb coming tuesday everybody will come with me

2010-02-02T04:27:00.000-08:00

was is a good day or a bad wan?
i duno. i guess, for now its good. chem class great!
im sitting alone. shiok. cause even if u dig ur nose people wont really see it.
unless some idiot admires you.
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i ride i happy, i come back and its gone.
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-wan a new crank.
-wan a imac. possible?
-wan a phone. wad else?

2010-01-25T03:24:00.000-08:00

2010-01-24T07:23:00.000-08:00

time is 11.23pm now.
first outing today was to take cement and make a banks.
but we nearly got caught. and we ran away.
next was, riding. went SP2.
andy shocked. i own.
next, hibiscus pavilion.
gap the place where said to be only teck seng gap.
so tried. tyre gone. damn.
than try again, wad a miracle. it went smooth.
tang tell teck seng scared to 180 down, so im going try it soon.
than today weird thing was i saw cartoon. he came there.
he friendly. taught me footjam tailwhip. guess wad i got it. but slipped.
but leg never touch the floor. happy. need practise. manual is crazy.
180, sweet. gap, good. thats about today. baby bought me corn plaster(:
love her.
anyway, tmr school.
and time is 11.30pm
im off to msg baby.
peace.

2010-01-22T02:22:00.000-08:00

you dont know what the meaning of love nor family.
you can be good. you can have money , frens, etc.
but love is something u can never learn buy, or sell.
you have to earn it.

2010-01-20T06:34:00.000-08:00

wad a lame day. haha.
sis's bdae (:
18 alr! shiok right? haha.
anyway happy birthday(:
school was fast. this year the time goes fast. cause we keep change classes i guess?
so after school. go park villa. slack myself.
than andy followed me to TH.
bought those pads. haha. not mens the wan (: dont worry.
went home. slack. stare at my art. give comment to myself.
going to sleep.
peace yo.

2010-01-08T07:01:00.001-08:00

school is bored. never go class ytd than i and andy argue with that fat fuck.
dont care. pants caught. i dont care. shiok (:
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if u wan to talk about me, tell me. dont go around sending mails to everyone.
its childish and stupid. still dont admit. wad a coward.
u said u wan burn me? come. wan learn 180 earlier than me? well i learnt it.
loser.

2010-01-01T09:06:00.000-08:00

u know something? i was called a fuckup on the day of new year(:
HOW GREAT IS MY LIFE?(:

2010-01-01T08:14:00.000-08:00

2010 just started. turned out to be black and white.

2009-12-25T09:16:00.000-08:00

went to the stupid lousy resort. is like shit. so dont go there. glory duno wad.
this are the views from there.

is like damn low tide.
so went for lunch. damn late alr.
so this is where we ate lunch.

this is my auntie. haha.
pics coming.

so ate and went to look for a better place to stay.

my bros.

so we went to this place which is so much better. so booked it.

so this is inside.

teaching my mum how to play pool. haha.

so moved to kl after 3 days.
stayed in times square hotel. its so much better.
pics are here.

the view from the hotel room.

so went to times square. heres the christmas tree from there.

thats all pics. stupid sis never bring camera go the other places. guess my facebook got more. so go check it (:

2009-12-24T08:35:00.000-08:00

although its my day. it totally sucks. anyway, i dont wish care about anything.
enjoy ur trip.
pics coming on my holiday to port dickson and KL.
stay tuned.

2009-12-15T20:41:00.000-08:00

this is what they warden told me, outside u can be somebody, but when ure inside ure nobody.

2009-12-15T20:19:00.000-08:00

went to prison ytd afternoon.
never wana go in there. i swear and promised to myself.
i have seen things u people never seen in life.
the funny thing, who ever coming act gangster, they go inside they damn dog to the police.
before we went, we had to surrender everything.
phone, belt, ring, ear stud, ear stick. no short pants. shirt or t shirt.
go in, pass this damn big wall. walk very long. pass this security check. than walk some more.
pass another security check. than they search us. 2 at a time. search like shit.
than walk in the prison. they treated us like prisoners. look down when u walk.
they will shout at u. the guy who scolded norvan last time freaked out.
that moment i wasnt so scared. but slowly they made us walk. with our hands behind all the time. we walk to some rooms. meet many cheifs. they damn big size. u can never do anything to them. the worst part that scared the shit out of me was,
they brought us to the caning room. where u people can never see in life.
the guy who caning also so big size. tall like shit. than he caned on a dummy.
everyone body shake. haha. me also la. thanhe say he need volunteer. he picked me.
damn scared. he ask me my name, offence, age, nric. than u tell alr, he will ask u, u ready for the cane? i say ' no sir ' damn scary. than he ask me go back. he ask anyone wana try.
all damn scared. the guy was shaking beside me. than they brought us to the torture chambers.
after that, go to the cell. they asked to try the food. u can try if u wan.
so i decided to try. so i dont feel wasted coming in here. first, breakfast, bread with coffee.
aint like ur mum makes for u. the coffee is like some shit colour. the taste is just water?
the bread, is like shit! no taste. damn disgusting.
than for lunch, rice, with peas. the peas is like raw. the rice is like never cook properly. very disgusting. the prisoners told us not to come in. i saw this guy, the inspector said he was standing in our place 3 months ago. and now he is inside. damn young la the guy. i think he youngest.
their blanket smelled even worse. cant imagine how they sleep inside. the cell is so small!
yet they say 10 ppl stays in there. the toilet worse, u shit i see. i shit u see. smell mine, i smell urs. simple. u fart i smell. i fart u smell.
and for the girls prison, they told when ur having mens. u have limited toilet pads.
u finish sorry. no more. no dustbin for u to throw. keep in ur cell.
sleep with it. strip search. when u have mens. they ask u to take out ur pad also to check.
damn disgustin.
but the thing is they dont get caning. but they stay a longer period of time.
the sad thing is, u can never see ur loved ones. so think.

2009-12-14T07:46:00.000-08:00

daddy bought for me food! lucky me :B

2009-12-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

gratz

2009-12-13T04:28:00.000-08:00

let the picture do the talking.
first hougang. than slowly senkang. saw many ppl playing kite with their loved ones.

than went around punggol. the place where i use to go is gone.

slowly i was linked to this place. something weird was that, there were nobody around.

just some cars parked. nobody seen in sight. no traffic lights even. there were no road names.

even though it was weird, the place was peaceful. love to go there again soon.

this where we went for camp in sec 1. we waited for the boat to come. old times.

the sea was dirty.

this is a oil spill. nobody seems to care. i also dont care.

than slowly ride home.

2009-12-12T06:28:00.000-08:00

you think your life sucks. how about mine?

2009-12-12T06:15:00.000-08:00

im getting sick.
i got problems. alot of problems.
im now not feeling well. damn.
im now having fever and headache.
its just all because of this problems i have. if u were me, i duno wad u will do.
dont feel like typing now. i wish to talk to someone close. who wont laugh to wad i say.
a person who will listen, care for me.
who can that person be? i dont have anyone to talk to now.
i need someone to help me out.
dont think anyone can. even the person i always talk to also giving me problems.
what can i do?
i got so many problems now! wtf can i do.
dont feel like saying anything more. blogging it out also dont give me lesser stress.
my heart aint like a rock. i have a heart. iloveher.
will she understand? i dont know. hope things change in my life.
telling this from the bottom of my heart.

2009-12-08T10:21:00.000-08:00

the statue of darella. haha. currently she's sleeping beside me. i pulling her eyelid ;x
nth to blog actually. got forced to. so today went to ride!! with andy only. since he also bored. so go ride. while riding saw this chair. lols. new model. nice?

footjam tailwhip here i come.

2009-11-30T08:18:00.000-08:00

eh norvan. i know who is the spammer alr (x
its a small kid. sit at home, be war hero (:
ladies and gentlemen! listen up. typical lizard face in action. lol. he tell me dog.
in the end. he spamming. ppl wana know who is this idiot boy spamming like crazy?
ITS LEON!!! a typical small boy. eh lizard face? always delete my tags right? delete now la (:
hahahah. dog. dont spam. u do wad also i know. come find me. ask u give number also so scared.
ppl, dont think im lying. its the truth here. dont believe up to u.
eh leon, i dare meet up with me. if not everyone knows ure scared of a 1 yr old?
knn, call me kid? call urself toddler dude :D meet up if u dare. tag me with ur number (:
bet u dont dare. if u dare to put ur number, good (: so waiting for u toddler.
go cry to ur mama. ppl bully u (: hahhaha! okay. u should know my point alr small boi.
u got alot of nick name eh. haha. wan hear?
womanizer, rapist, lizard face( your fren told me this, hahahaha) , toddler, humji (: nice?
like it? u should lizard(: u got a dare now. complete. or else u will be known as a coward.
knn come find problem with me, know my background than shutup? hahha!
i make sure i break ur face.
peace lizard (: dont make noise at night. haha.

2009-11-27T23:09:00.000-08:00

love this trick. just caught it ytd only. crossed frame. and missed pedals.

caught my seat only. ass. need practise. a few more will be good to go.

caught 180 too. but cant reli roll out yet. next trick to learn will be, 360.

coming soon....

2009-11-27T08:06:00.000-08:00

suffocating under words of sorrows. just have a wish now.
i wish im dead. its a simple solution to a escape of a thousand things in life.
wish this wish came true.

2009-11-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

damn life. my post is like same almost everyday.
currently living my life without any frens.
one, i hate you. i wont bother about ur life anymore. blablabla.
now, im sorry. i know my mistake. forgive me. how stupid.
another wan, i wan quit biking. reason ' i no mood ' -.-
lol. another idiot.
hmmm, wad should i say? he just a quiter though. nvm.
aint to look for them. see if i can get that new bunch of ppl to ride with.
if works out. its great.
cant wait to meet em' .
just had a quarelled with bi. always the same. aint surprising. with some stupid reasons.
currently waiting for her to talk to me.

2009-11-22T01:42:00.000-08:00

fuck it. bike is the only thing which will be by my side forever.
currently finding riders. who really ride. aint like ppl who stay with their mum.
fuck off boy.

2009-11-16T06:49:00.001-08:00

wow! love baby !
she got me shuffle today !! how sweet right?
she still sad about it cause se no money to get me a nano ):
kuku seh. lols, baby, no need sad wan. thought that counts right?
so ya(:
dont have to sad. love it ! know the colour? hot pink man ! lol.
cool. bought my new earpiece also. sennheiser. cx 300ii!
60 dollars. original price 100 plus. this guy steady sold it to me.
illegal business. haha. anyway great. just cant wait for chalet now.
looking forward to it (:

2009-11-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

life is simple, I make a choice and never turn back.
all i need is trust.

2009-11-12T05:33:00.000-08:00

scalded my hand just now. by mum.
anyway, went to bishan alone just now. saw sherman there awhile. than go off alr.
than i play awhile and go home.
was quite out of mood today. was raining all day long.
bishan was wet. didnt get to play much.
went home msg bi no reply.
currently waiting for a file to download. and it is taking like a century.
so chalet going good. some problems. will manage it.
asked sherman whether he was interested to come. see he coming a not.
er , so see how things go.
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stupid fuckers.

2009-11-06T09:20:00.000-08:00

bishan pictures mia (x
haha .. anyway, chalet next event coming up. on the 18. calling all 2a1 bitches and bastards to attend kindly (: coming means get ready 10 dollars in your pockets. cause those food aint going to be like shit anymore. getting it from much better place. bbq is all on me. 2 nights bbq. advise come for 1st night. (:
drinkers . pls pay extra. 2 to 3 bottles coming in.
so all are invited (:
can tag or call me if need any more stuff(:
so dont be late !
its going to be so much better than last year's , thats for sure.
so be there. get high bitches and bastards ! (x

2009-10-30T07:42:00.000-07:00

A nice weather. headed down from km to hougang. called andy for the last time before going to amk banks. this time he changed his decision. so he came. we headed down to the banks without stopping. played at the banks. damn fun. fakie like crazy. down are some pics which i took from there.

-Andy doing a 180 turn down the banks.

-Me trying to do a turndown. its a very hard trick. but nice.

-tyre slide 180?

-andy in the air. cool!

-his butt looks ready for some action :P

-there goes the front wheel.

check out my next post on bishan(: stay tuned !

2009-10-29T03:51:00.000-07:00

just some pics of my bike (;

2009-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

problems flow man! why don't money flow like that?! anyway, just becus of that tagboard thing, the Leon wans to beat me. this what he says, ' wait till i see you. i will break your face. ' so dropped the matter. he hasnt and is waiting for the time. so let him wait. i aint going call ppl. because i dont care. im going school tmr, so be there if u wan (: bet ure calling your frens right? okie (: sure. anyway i dont care alr luhs. Maybe theres a so called class outing coming up at east coast. so if anyone wana come, tag along. but just not that girl. i will spoil my mood (: so ya. should be going to school tmr. and going to get the bag. so can travel to somerset easily.

here's a pic of a ghost in the air. see properly. u can see it. it look as if it was going to commit suicide. its scary! caught it in my video.

2009-10-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

what the fuck did i do wrong in life? or what the fuck did i do wrong to you?
why do u always have to cause problems to your parents and me? Dont you have brains of your own?! how stupid can you be? this is the powers of ur words? thought u always said u will show me? so this is ur show? u wan me regret my decisions? why do u always have to do things like this? will u never reform. i can never believe u now. i swear. dont even wana reply your stupid and lame sms-es. all the msges i get is all the same. cant even believe u did this. if i ever see u with that bitch again, i swear u will never be able to see me again in life. so make ur decision. but can tell u, i swear ur gonna cry when removing. did it together right? why not ask her join u remove hers. will she? no! because ure the stupid dumb here! monkey see monkey do. now got example of it already. try asking her. see whats her reply. than u willl know. u can never reform. according to me. because ure so just stupid! i just hate you.

2009-10-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

yo! ecp is up next ! when to somerset park this saturday. its fun. bet ecp is worst ans steeper than this ! checking out mayb on wednesday with sherman again. its not confirm yet(: but bishan should be confirm for now (: looking forward to it !

2009-10-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

sold this odysssey civilian to guanghui at 85 dollars. and got new bars (x

mine right here is the fit high bars. bought at 95(: sweet! 28 inch bars. getting fork soon. should be looking good. intend to go ecp next friday in the morning. if nobody's coming i'll still be going. ask dad send me ther (:

still got long way to go. after school when baby house(: was talking craps there. laugh till roll around alr. haha. tmr going to post a pic of darella(: a pic of her when she was a few months only. and a pic of her now.
and bi, do well for exam (:

2009-10-03T23:02:00.000-07:00

hey im back! just a little news from me (x
my bike is up. some guy got almost the same bike as me ;x
but diff tt and so.
can check out my bike check at , www.sgbmx.wordpress.com (:

2009-09-26T03:45:00.000-07:00

metro bmx jam 2007 pics(:

just some bike pics(:

2009-09-19T07:26:00.000-07:00

mike aitken aka mikey. known for his creativity and innovative. his a well known guy for all riders. he was born on the same month as me. febuary 12 1983. he stays at salt lake city with his loving wife and a son, name, Owen. mikey has been riding for like 12 years. freaking long. also a role model for me. he evn got in a accident while riding and went in coma and right side paralysis. after that he was okay. he started riding his bike again. his just a freaking good rider. one of the best park riders. its hard to be like him. wish to be. not sure whether will be. gettin his signature frame on monday. love it ! heres the pic(:

2009-09-16T07:06:00.000-07:00

just some pics.
me and jingyew's bike.

hate him. torture him.

2009-09-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

biking is my life.
never gonna stop it for anyone.
fuck life.

2009-07-14T06:16:00.000-07:00

2a1 is just a weirdo class. all with some freaking attitude.
dont understand whats wrong with this people nowadays.
er, do u ppl know what is a clique?
clique is a group of people in it which always sticks together.
you ppl dont even know whats the meaning of it and you keep saying we are a clique.
when u ppl, when called to go out, always refuse, and give excuse and in the end lie.
and when u lie, you scold we ppl for asking why u lie.
think of what you did before scolding back alrights?
when we guys suggest to some where, u ppl just know how to complain.
and u like the supervisor or something?
u all always know how to complain instead of encouraging.
you dont give an idea than when we tell why the hell do you wana complain alot?
most excuse, ' mum ask me go home early leh. '
in the end, with another person outside. seen it many times.
hate betrayers.

2009-07-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

here are some pics which i've done this few days(:

and bi, thanks for being with me when i need you. you're a great gf, wife(:

and forget what i've said ytd. rmb what we did after i told u that? omg. first time u see my like that ehs ;x

even my parents nvr see me like that b4, but only u did. ure mine, and im yours.

dont anyhow think stuff alrights?(:

iloveyou baby (:

2009-07-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

Everyone ones to change the world.
But I don't understand why people,
Don't want to change themselves.

2009-07-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

darryl phone went missing again -.-
pitied him. helped him search ! and guess wad?
i found the phone, without the sim card. idiots -.-
than take the phone lor. tmr will be returning him (:
hope he is happy with it lo (:
hmms, so after skul, drink?
jingyew drink till he dropped and vomitted so many times.
some more the toilet bowl got the vomit stain lo ;x
hahas. some more he force. den found out some secrets all. lol.
nobody must know luhs. secret ma?lol.
but shocking. hahas. hor bi? xD
but nvms. so left very little with the jack daniel.
omg. alot money gone. hahas. still eoy chalet coming.
im going to drop flat alr ;x
cant wait ;x
but now must study luhs (:
so peace ppl (:

2009-07-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

went to buy some drinks baby !
lols. went to see baby snoaring in the morning (:
she sleep like nobody buisness !
hahs. than came and hug her on bed ;x
she very soft and smelly ;x because she not yet nor brush teeth.
after bi, wash up all, jy came. bought a bottle of my fav jack daniels !
than jy first time trying. he say its the best and very nice !
and so when things are nice, the price is also nice (:
so bought drank abit only luhs. rest keeping for tmr i after! (:
so see who wan follow us tmr. we dont mind going alone.
because we still can enjoy(:
lols. jy is a good fren now. compared to last time luhs. sorry to say jy ;x
hahs. but truth. he is much better. u ask him help u, he help.
futhermore, his attitude has also changed alot (:
admit, i and jingyew have been to kpo alr this few days.
but, we promise we wont tell anyone.
but if need anything regards to that, can ask us.
sorry anyway.
tmr, skul, hair check for me from mr. farid.
lame -.- so got my hair cut super short !
dont laugh thank you.
trying to be good as possible !

2009-07-05T03:49:00.000-07:00

probloems everyday. how lucky am i? (:
ya. problems are coming 1 after another.
everyday some how my damn mood is gone!
damn pissed!
after what you said, i dont really trust you. im sorry to say.
now, whatever u say its not trustable.
if that was going to happen, i wont be the 1 affected.
because for you, you need someone who cares and love you.
so bi, sorry. we can always do things again.
its not a big deal is it? hope we can be like the past.

2009-06-30T02:59:00.000-07:00

Is everyone's life like this or isit mine only?
school stuck with problems. come home get nag all day long by mum.
And I have more probs coming in now. just a stupid thing.
which makes so damn pissed ! Saw that picture i got so angry and pissed.
awhile ltr the pic came to mind and i just threw that fone on the ground and walked off.
never going to look at it again. it will just make me piss off more.
never got this angry for awhile now.
think of it and im getting angry again.
why must I only always get tortured? i never play in people's life.
just dont understand all this. always lost of mood cause of this stupid things.
last time i dont even spoil my mood. i was always like kin seng. happy and joyful !
but now, its all come to and end.
cant be happy in life nowadays. try joke around and play a fool also cannot.
never happy now.

and you don need my permission already since you do it despite me denying, rather just do it than asking and not obeying. my words have no repect for it anymore. for all i talk is all rubbish coming out. care or dont care also no difference.
so im not going to care for anything in my life.
so just leave me alone.
And for that Mrs Chen .
going to attitude you tmr. im not going to bring your stupid book all.
want cut my hair? go try on your husband before trying on me.

2009-06-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

1 YEAR AND 3 MONTHS TODAY !

CANDID BABY (:

2009-06-13T01:27:00.000-07:00

ytd 1 lady shouted so loud in the fone that i can put the phone like away from me ,
but i still can hear every single word she says !
she was shouting so loud that i think my ear may even bleed ! u call this women a women?!
girls are gentle and soft !
but she was like going wild alr . hahs . i wanted to laugh ! because the voice was hilarious !
hahahahs ! she was like entertaining me luhs . hahas.
wish to speak to her soon . for that women's daughter , another surprise is coming up for you .
wait and see (: be prepared also . giving your mother a call soon . bet u will be reading .
hahas . dog can go online?! omg ! guinnes world records !
hahahah! guard dogs .guarding their reputation . because its going down ! whee xDD
anyways , just be ready for your surprise call on monday , alrights?(: plus a present will be delivered to your house personally (:

2009-06-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

Someone from 2A1 wanted to come to the class bbq .
firstly, if she comes there, no guys will be going. Even bi , wont be attending it.
so eventually it will be cancelled. She is so thick skin to even come!
Hello, f.y.i. , Somebody , u are not even going to be invited for anything.
And pls leave from Bowen alr. Nobody can stand you anymore. you are like a pest to me.
Just get out my face. Thought u tok big say wan transfer ? why not yet ?
dont be a thick skin and please dont come for the bbq . thank you !
i dont understand why am i telling u thank you . just shut up and dont come la .

2009-06-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

just got a new phone today . went with baby to get it .
can say as , bi bought it for me (: we went and bought a LG RENOIR . okays luhs .
not bad actually .but its like hard to type . must get use to it alr .
today not much luhs . the usual . aloy was begging to go to his chalet .
and he lie say bi gg -.- pathetic ppl begging to go for chalet .
so actually no ppl going . norvan and andy only going . how sad .
kin seng also i think . and kenneth . other than that i think nobody alr . stupid .
its a flop . just pass the key to a better person and there will be ppl coming in .
par-taying all night !
so bbq going well luhs . good . nobody come also nvms actually .hahas . but there will be ppl for sure .confirm wan . can see all butt's itchy cant wait alr ;x
hmms , so nothing else to say alr luhs . bored this few days ! super !
thats all luhs for now . wait for new post (:

2009-06-07T09:27:00.001-07:00

class bbq is going well . but aloysius chalet is now a flop ;x
nobody once to go because he has so many restrictions and the girls of 2a1
are not allowed to go . so how many boys are there to have fun with anyway?
lankun? he go there only play psp luhs. than who some more? zakee?
dont lame luhs . a chalet is like anybody can come and have fun .
not , a list of hu can come and hu cant luhs . like that u dont even need to book right?!
book hotel also better . i think ppl hu will be going will be , kin seng , mayb guang hui .
than royce . the others i think not going . mostly all lame ppl going .
its going to be a chalet with silence accompanying them -.-
selfish ppl . nvms . bi , decided to have a class bbq . thosr hu wana come can come , those hu dowana come can stay at home takecare your grandma alr (:
no worries . Mrs Chia is coming if im not wrong?
than mostly confirm , will be the ' cliques ' luhs.
ya so , everyone is invited for it (:
those whom wana come are allowed . but make sure get some weight on your wallet .
cause we also need money to buy things and so for everyone . so ya .
show some kindness (:
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ya and so about today . nth much luhs .
just a normal boring day . but i stayed till late with darling ;DD
evening left house to meet norvan at kovan there .
he kept pestering me ! so my answer was yes . actually wana meet bi also, thats whys ;x
than met him , so funny sia ! hahs ! small boy running in the road with out mummy !
hahas ! than went in KM to find a bike to use awhile . took a lame bike and went for exploring .
than bi smsed and said she wanted to find me. okays. asked her to come to richard there.
went to fetch her there (:
than walkwalk awhile to KM .
had pizza for dinner and satay (:
than talked away . played with some pineapples ! throw tilll siao . laugh also like siao lo .
than bi , cannot tarhan alr ;x
than around 9.30 left KM for home . rode home . reached bowen in within 5 mins .
fast right ? got home got more scolding than usual -.-
yaya . im the one hu always bring problems home . when i dont . in the past only lo .
ppl change and all they also not happy . sua lo .
so tmr going meet bi i think .
must get a pair of CHEAP shoe . bi , knows whys (x
hahs. mayb wont be bloggin for tmr . passing bi , lappy tmr (: if possible (:
so thats all for now (:
chaozz ~

2009-06-06T11:04:00.001-07:00

so told that was going out just now , and ya . i did go out today (:
i mean ytd . cause now is alr a sunday .i was like carrying darella . so we had to pack some
food and off to some other place to eat .
father showed us devil's bend (: creepy !
than we saw , a few motors racing through . father say here got alot of motor races .
many died also ;x hahs.
then we headed to like , er , pierce reservior? <--- not sure how to spell ;x
than ya , it was so damn dark anyway . super quiet . and there were alot of couples ):
wish bi was here . so can hug her (x hahas .
then had our dinner there alr . and off me go back to the vehicle .
i went in first . than ya , on air con all this .
my lucky day ! i can drive now ! since father is not around (x
than quickly ask sis come in . than put in reverse gear alr . nervous lo .
cause i scared ltr forget how to drive ;x
than reverse the car . and brought it out to where my parents were . they were walking back actualy but i made it nearer for them . father did not say anything also luhs .
than darella also tired alr .was smsing bi all the way . but sadly ,
she fell asleep half way ):
okays , nvms . than i came home start to blog . and going to sleep now .
not sure if meeting bi a not tmr . if cancel mayb she wan go out with family and she wans me to tag along with her family ! omg luhs ! hahas ~
so , must see how it goes tmr (:
give me a break i needa sleep !
alrights shit faces :x
Good Night ! ;DD
tmr shall post again . if lappy is with me (:

2009-06-06T02:49:00.000-07:00

karanguni students got a call from bowen secondary school to go collect some newspapers!
so off we the famous class 2A1 go to school to meet !
at around 9 i reached school with bi , norvan and gang .
than our whole class was starign at us .hello im not late .
becus the form said 9! okays im late . becus all were suppose to meet at 8.30 !
hahs. den go canteen for short briefing .
den off we go with the horn ;x (actually no horn luhs . just making it interesting )
hahs. than slowly walk xinmin sec and off we separate .
we were given block . i find it lame at first . than we go compete . hu get the most wins .
hahs . the end we got the most in the class whole class ! hahahahah !
the pic is all the things we collected from the karanguni mission ! xDD
still got some more covered behind . cant see .

so after all dismissed , i went to my mother in law house . wow !
she got a new haircut btw ! so cute sia xDD
hahas . look much younger . should have took a pic of her ! forgotten to ;x
hahs. den bi keep hugging me ;x
she loves me too much alr luhs .hahas .
than ate at her house (:
than awhile ltr , around in the evening i left her house for mine . and she oushed my bike for me lo . so this is the picture of it :x
nice ma?

the end of my day (: guess im going out ltr with family ? should be (:
and not forgetting , Darella vomitted today about 3 times .
i have no idea what to do also luhs . sorry no time take pic of her vomit .
had to clear it up . she went to ly down beside me while i clean it up .
bi was sad after hearing this . dont sad darling (: iloveyou !
' the end '

Are things only uncovered after years of escavation?

2009-06-05T03:14:00.001-07:00

this is where th story begins (:

a class which is always not together as 1 .

kin seng and norvan .

this money is for my macbook. still saving (:

random pics (:

2009-06-05T00:55:00.000-07:00

ytd

went to changi with norvan and BABY !

did not intend to bring baby ther as she do not like to go to this type of places .

norvan wanted to go fishing luhs . so accompanied him there .

then took a cab there (:

went there unpack stuff . cast (:

and waited patiently . wanted to get some drinks but no shop or anything .

so i brought bi for a walk (:

i knew she cant stand in hot sun for long .

so brought her for a walk (: she held my hand and we walk (:

talk about alot of things (: thats where we patched back ;x

than talk alot of past things and walked . than ltr rest awhile under a hut (:

than bi tired alr . so let her ly down on my lap while (:

than walked back called norvan . shift place . because the other side very hot .

than fish awhile more , than we headed back home (:

decided to follow baby and post pics ;x

this is the place we went (:

this is where we went for a walk .

and you know what we did while walking ? ;x

hahas . we very sweet right ? thankyou ! thankyou ! xDD

and ya . this is all we done ytd (: for today . post coming soon .

short wan . dont worry (:

2009-05-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

ytd celebrated father's birthday .

dowan to go actually . due to some reason (:

but in the end i went for it .

this are my kuku sisters (:

and this is me . but there alr (: the pool there (:

hahas . sorry cant see my face . was a candid anyway ;x

thats all . didnt take the place all . but the drinks were nice .

one was this . fruit punch .

the drinks were like free flow luhs .

they keep pour my cup till like nvr ending .

hahas . and went to ride . till night . and this was richard .

and there was like a couple here luhs . cannot see the face .

hahas . okays . thats all for ytd . and today not much . did not go skul as it is boring .

went to meet bi . she so cute luhs . dont even know im in her room alr .

hahas . than stay till evening . see alot shit with her . about abortion and ghost .

very sad the abortion .

everyone is advised not to abort a baby .

its a very cruel thing to do . and so . end of the day . gotta go alr (:

peace (:

2009-05-21T05:35:00.000-07:00

school is just a waste of time for me .
i study as much as possible but i still can fail .
i dont feel sad over this shits .
but i could not even complete science .
i studied for it like hours an in the end i got a fever -.-
than i could not even do that paper and art .
and today some things happen . im dont even care luhs .
but its like so funny when u hear it .
today during assembly , dunno who put the blue tape on suda ass .
than stuck there for long . and went she found out , she cried -.-
hello . i would have laughed .
but she cried , took it out and called her mother bring her home .
she said she wanted to transfer . thought the girls all will be sad or wad?
but hey , nobody seem to show any emotions . all are happy playing around .
and so , many people are happy on her leaving this class , or should say school .
hahas . i can laugh if i think of that tape on her ass ! HAHAHAHA !
many ppl know this matter alr ? if im not wrong .
so good luck for transfer . hope she transfers . happy ending alr .
im still now like saving for a vaio . hais . its like taking very long .
and its going to cost me about 2k?
and i only now got a pathetic $600 -.-
and for bi ,
im sorry about today .
im getting angry very fast . u should know why luhs .
i got alot of shits in my head . super stressed up .
dunno wad to do with it .
im just sorry luhs for today morning also ):

2009-05-20T00:58:00.000-07:00

Even if it takes forever to see.

What happiness really means to me.

I understand love will always be

in perfect harmony

between you and me.

One day you will come to know

that no matter how far you may go

the joys and sorrows that we share

are just like the touch of your hair

which is full of tender care.

Yet I can only say

this love for you will never decay

I love you every single day

and in every sinle way.

And it pains me to see you fading away.

2009-05-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

miss 2 days exam . i feel all i studied was a waste .
thursday when im suppose to do my exam , in the morning my temparature was 39.4 i guess?
so went to doc in the late morning . went there checked temp again , was the same .
so got a injection on my left arm . still got mark now . cant lift my hand .
and got cough luhs , running nose , sore throat , vomiting and headache .
vomited about more than 5 times alr . some more never eat all plain water .
disgusting luhs .i cant even walk . can u believe a clinic which is just 1 junction away from my house i took cab there?
and than see doc alr , another cab back .
than doc altogether 86 plus .siao wan ryt?
than ytd and today eating porridge )':
feel like dying . today thought can go do art at least also cant . still had fever in the morning .
so did not go to skul today . stayed at hm and slept whole day . smsed bi .
she was walking home . sadded . she purposely wan lo . ask her take from anyone money and go home she dowan ):
than she walked home and smsed me all the way till she reached .
than i was still sleeping at the moment . but did not tell her ;x
ltr she ask me go and sleep . than norvan all calll and msged me ytd .
sorry . no voice . cant pick up the fone . and cant reply . too weak .
thought today will okay , but ... ):
now currently body is boiling once again . ltr for dinner , porridge again .
but not bad also . hahs . now sitting without t-shirt infront of a fan and blogging .
its veryvery cold ! i cant take it anymore ! i feel like huggin my beloved wife .
but she is now at hm . dunno doin wad ?
i wish her to be my side , but its like impossible )':
nvms . hope i cab down to her house on monday .
having some time with her . i just miss her alot !
bi , just enjoy without . if u don't i just feel terribly bad luhs . like because of me than u cant go out all . so just go out and enjoy urself . i will tc myself .
bi , iloveyou luhs .

2009-05-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

the days are going faster than i thought . things are changing .

more things are coming into my life . sometime unhappy . actually i always had a wish from bi .

but im not sure it will come true a not ): hope she listens to me and do that luhs .

bi , i dont mean to control u too much .

i just don't want you to go astray . u may nvr know what may happen right?

im just afraid . not that i dont trust . just a fear in my heart .

i wish u to be a good girl to ur parents and me .

i wish to see u graduate from the school u always wanted to go , NAFA .

wish to see u having a good future . even i dont have ,

i want u to have a great future on life . not like my current life .

i always wanted u to live a better life than ur present one .

getting u penthouse liked u wish , getting what u wished for .

now i cant . im not rich enough to give u what u wished for .

but i will try to save . like now , im saving for itouch .

i just want you to get what u liked in life.

things u like , must belong to u .

so bi , pls dont think im controlling u .

i told u this before .

if a guy who dont love u , he would not even care whether u wana pierce all a not?

he would have just asked u go .

i love u too much that i dont want u to spoil ur future .

ur future must be brighter than mine .

so , hope u might have understood whether i just wana control u a not ?

if u think u want more space , u can come and tell it to me .

i wont get angry or wad ?

i want all of ur dreams to come true .

i will be by ur side surpporting u all the way alrights ?

and im sorry , if im controlling u too much.

im really sorry ):

2009-05-06T05:21:00.000-07:00

problems are just rolling in my heart like a dice .

people's actions cause me problems .

i just ignore all this stupid problems which makes my life miserable .

read something . was very sad to hear all this . just dunno what to do .

how can i help ? what should i do . i feel im abit useless ):

i dont know what to do right now , but i got a small solution . IGNORE .

thats all i can say for now . nowadays getting my mood spoilt . getting angry easily .

my attitude is changing . sorry if i have attitude any1 i know .

i just feel wierd this few days . bi , u should know luhs.

sorry if i got angry with u or scolded you ):

im trying to change my attitude . its hard , but i got to .

and i will .

i dont know what to say anymore alr luhs. life just sucks this few days .

and had a bad dream .

something bad is gonna happen in my life .

gotta wait for that so called suprise .

my life isnt going the way i want it .

tchers look down on me .

everyone look down on me .

ya , im useless .

good for no fuck . only good for beating ppl up all .

piercing all . good for smsing and all .

parents ya , father like to keep say , i dont even study , come home everyday at 6.

ya la . im always good for nothing . the mrs wee . my maths tcher .

she also in the gang alr .

i will just heackcare all this . i dont care whether u look down or look up all .

my life , my future .

its me who will decide my destiny . who the fuck are u all to comment .

ppl even think im too ugly for bi . its her decision .

hu the fuck are u to call me names and so ?

look in the mirror before talking something .

you now wan step lian hor? go find luhs ahlian all this , go find trouble luhs .

you dare ? you dont think ure a gangster when u are just in ur backyard .

face the real world small girl .

2009-04-29T04:41:00.000-07:00

my life is like getting from bad to worse .

first in Bowen life , it all started with cases in the school .

small cases . started like , never bring book . never do homework .

than this continues and so .

slowly cases gets bigger .

started with a , like er , long hair . got caught by Ms Normala and so .

and she cuts it . there goes my hair . than cases like fihgting .

it happened right after exam when i was in sec 1 .

i fought with a guy called , Lankun .

he was 16 or 17 ? he came from china . so elder luhs .

than got into discipline and so .

than next was like er , if im not wrong was also fighting ?

than followed by a smoking case by HSA(health science authorities)

the letter was sent to school . and i did not know about it. they sent it to my home to.

and so , this year , caught with a fight once again .

beat up a boy Raj from india .

he was like 1 year elder than me . i not sure 1 or 2 years luhs.

than , beat him till worse than all fights i got . this was the worse so far !

and i thought why am i hurting ppl ? so i changed.

tried to be a better person .

but when i change , i realised things happening around me .

people are like taking revenge against me . i did not get angry .

people treated me not the way they usually treat me.

i took it normally , and slowly , ppl left me 1 by 1 .

i was left with my Amanda .

She was always there for me when i needed someone .

She was like evrything to me . and when time changes.

she also had problems with her frens . and all were apart .

and today , all were back tgt . i dont get the same company as i get normally like last time .

after she had her frens . she needs to make time out for both .

i understand . she is also stress in making time for both .

so i took it normally and was happy . but realise , it gets worse .

more things changes . and i duno why .

im sorry for today . did not know u were in a bad mood .

scolded u for fun .and u got angry . im really sorry .

but i dont understand why .

im in the wrong .

im always in the wrong . thats whhy i told u in the start , ' I'm a failure. '

i cant never make ppl happy . although i try .

i can nvr achieve something i really try for . im just a idiot who knows how to be clown,

but do not know how to keep my girlfriend happy ):

im really very sorry .

2009-04-22T02:09:00.000-07:00

Hello !
Mrs Deelan here :X

Hees~ helping tht lazy boy t post .
Well , love sick .. Both of us are sick ! T.T
He didnt attend school this 2 days , as for me , ive alrdy skipped 4 days lesson ;x
But not continuously 4 days of course .

Gratz this boy for getting 23/30 for his science test !
First time okays?! i mus really buck up alrdy ! TxT

I wish t see him tmr ):
talkin on th phone with him , or i should say wasting money .
He's playing game , im blogging ..
So yah , u can even hear th ants talking -.-

I shall end here (:
My blog's also dying T.T

BYE!

2009-04-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

tagged by Darling (:

1.beside your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?

-cheek (x

2.how do you feel when u wake up this morning?

-feeling hurt ):

3.who was the last person you took picture with?

-My girl (:

4.would you consider to be spoilt?

-er , no ?

5.would you ever donate blood?

-er , i guess . if a person is in need (:

6.do you have a good fren of the opposite sex?

-uh huh (:

7.do u want someone dead?

-er , yes . mayb , fatdick ?

8.what does your last msg says?

-T T okies. come online talk t me :B bi pls? awhile T.T <-- by baby

9.what are you thinking right now?

-my beloved wife's condition ):

10.do you wish someone was with u right now?

-OBVIOUSLY !

11.what time did u got to sleep last night?

-er , if im not wrong it is , 11 going 12 ?

12.where did you bought the t-shirt you're wearing now?

-er, options ?

13.is someone on your mind right now?

-isn't it like obvious ?

14.who were the last 3 people who text you?

-BABY , jingyew and my teacher xPP

15.tag 10 people to do this quiz .

1.counsellors

2.So-dek

3.louis

4.jason

5.tyas

6.belle

7.denish

8.Angelina

9.wilson

10.jordan

16.who is nuber 2 having relationship with?

-Anandi

17.i 3 a female/male?

-male .

18.if 7 and 10 get together what will happen?

-they are both guys!!hahs

19.what is number 1 studying about?

-er, i dunno ? students?lols

20.is number 4 single?

yeaps.

21.say something about number 5.

-good boy .

22.what do you think of number 4 and 6 together?

-er , the girl is older than the guy .

23.describe number 9.

-fatfat (x

24.what will u do if 6 and 7 fight?

hahaha !!! she will get beaten by him badly!

25.do you like number 8?

er , nope ;x not so close . lost contact alr .

2009-04-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

having some ad times this few days . baby is changing for my sake .i just simply love her (:

hmmm , sports day ? was boring . usual . than went home latelate.

10o3o9

nvr go out . was tied down my darella . mum all wanted to go out. and they nvr . and she said , if i wanted to go out i gotta take her along.

so i also got no choice . had to stay at hm .

so stayed hm . do all house chores ;x

intended to see my darling but could not .

than thought of seeing her the next day . than mum and sisters went out .

so had to takkecarre her at hm . mopped the house ;x

i know its incredible but thats the truth .

im trying to be a better person .

hmmm , so today , got nth to do . stayed at hm . watch some movies at hm.

dad also watch with me . hahs .

darella was sleeping while mum all come back . nvr eat lunch also .

not eating properly nowadays. i coming thinner .

got nth to blog nowadays .

hope can meet her tml ):

2009-03-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

1 YEAR (:

today is our 1 year anniversary !

how happy can i be on this day ?

was talking to her the night b4 .

she was talking . and we kept telling tml is our 1 year.

than awhile ltr , she said she felt sleepy.

so asked her to sleep in the line.

and as minutes past , she was busy in her wonderland !

so i also didn't make much noise while she sleeping (:

she slept for about an hour plus on the phone . can u imagine that ? i cant luhhs. cause the fone kp ;x

than wa going to 12 alr.

so got ready and send her that msg exactly at 12 am in the morning !

she was still sleeping . her fone had some songs playing in it.

so i listen to it . than i heard her fone ring, cause of my msg luhhs (:

than around 12.16 plus she woke up luhhs (: first she call me i guess?

i was not sure . as her voice was like damn soft luhhs.

so could not hear it.

than i ignore ;x SORRY!

than ltr she called me with a louder voice . and i was going offline at that time .

than she checked the time i guess ? she begun to keep saying sorry !

lol. than i say nvm all this.

than ltr she send me her msg (:

and baby , i wont leave u no matter what ? no worry alrights ?(:

dont worry much ! iloveyou.

hmmm , than both of us went to sleep .

than mornin woke up and come school happily as can sit beside my darlink .

but some childish guys were like talking away for the whole lesson -.-

i got pissed . i got damn angry . and i can hear him laugh so fucking loud !

how long can i tolerate ?! than amanda asked to him to keep quiet .

he still went on , as though he nvr heard anything ! why we would change our place back ?!

and ya , so ltr , that shorty came in and kp luhhs ! knn shorty !

this school as humans with down syndrome ! they just cant control theor fuckinf self !

and i got pissed . i tried to ignore and i did.

but the thing is that , if we talk when we're according to her seating plan ,

she punishes us . but wen we sit ourselves and talk , we gotta sit according to her seating plan -.-

she is like so unfair luhhs ! why her heart pain if we nvr pass ?

our mother meh ? she feed us breast milk uh ?

u cant even afford a gift for a class u wana be a mother to the whole class ?!

your husbank divorce u run away. ltr u like dunkard come sleep at roadside !

stupid women ! only noe how to punish and ask us to copy whtever she shows !

she show her breast also i think must copy lo.

stupid women ! so short , u can control the class ?!

and u stupid 2a1 idiot are being her dog !

1 example is that ducky !

i will nvr be her dog .

from now n after how she have hurt ' ppl '

im going to show her some fucking attitude she never seen before !

2009-03-22T05:32:00.000-07:00

my baby 's back yesterday ! but sadly , i cound not even meet her.

her flight was late , and ya , as usual , once it gets late, i can't go out -.-

thought of just going down to meet her.

scared parents ltr come hm alr.

so never luhhs. than was sms-ing her.

she came home , unpacked her things and so.

i was like damn happy she reached back SG safely :DD

and another happy thing will be meeting her the next day which is today (:

see her, hmmmm, wanted to hug her but nvr .

than slowly walk to her house.

go up, she wanted to sleep .

so i went to use com and so.

She was very sweet, as she bought for me stuff (x

iloveher luhhs ! she is like so loving !

than, ya , i wanted to powto someone luhhs. so that person also will have case.

but i was like what the fcuk when there had some error while doing it -.-

wait till i try another time.

fuck all this people alright? i dowan be a stupid getting fcuked everytime !

i also have some rights !
mayb going to email it to fat dog soon.

lets see wad happens.

thier parents will be call and another main dog will come in .

and BREAK BABY !

lol .so get ready with ur emotions(:

anyway , hope to seeing my darlink again tml in school !!
and out again !

hmmm , i think i should end here alr. peaceoutz~

2009-03-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

hmmm , 3 days have only pass and i can't take it !

i have nobody to talk to !

who ever i talk ther will be a problem !

how can i ever talk to anyone?

i just need her to come back to SG.

she can't even sms me properly.

a few sms and she vanishes .

have to wait longlong for next sms .

i cant live like this alrights ?

fuck life man !

whenever u try to be really happy ,

there is always an obstacle there for u.

it's whether u have the power to go pass it .

and i guess i don't .

because i just loved her too much !

all i wan is her to come back to SG as soon as possible.

2009-03-16T08:15:00.000-07:00

Amanda's leaving tomorrow morning ):

today morning , wakeup , prepare and left house .

straight went to find my beloved .

took a cab down to her house .

she was still sleeping at home .

so i went up myself .

went in her room , she was hugging her boulster and sleeping (x

she damn cute luhhs !

jump on her , asked her to wake up .

she dowan .

beat her on the back ;x

she dumbdumb , hug me and sleep again !

than i also actually sleepy , so i also sshhh abit alr .

slowly close my eyes . than ask her go prepare .

than she go while i sleep .

than ltr ,afta she bath and come out ,

we went down to swimming pool there , than met the rest .

than walk to MRT .

went in met another 2 .

train down to , harbourfront .

intended to got to sentosa .

so head ther , than went for breakfast .

afta that , went out was raining , so trip to ther was cancelled .

so , all hang around in vivo .

go arcade play awhile.

i no mood at that time , trying to be happy .

but whenever i think of it , i just cant be happy anymore .

it's equivalent to someone taking half of my life away .

went out arcade a while to cool down.

baby , came out (:

she talked to me . ask me not to think of it .

u guys might be thinking wad is it .

it will told in the end of the blog .

than arcade , went outside arcade ther , slack a while .

feeling much better luhhs (:

tan all sian , go inside walkwalk .

than all go home .

baby tired wana sleep .

so accompanied her go to her house .

than go ther , she slept a while.

started to think alr .

she also no mood luhhs .

than she was sleeping i guess.

than i was awake form around 6 plus thinking about it .

than 7 plus .mum say dad wan kp . dont care .

than baby ask me go home .

i just didn't wana leave her !

she asked me to go home .

i felt more sad .

i'll be more honest here .

tears came down alrights?

i know its a ps thing for a guy .

i just loved her alot .

i can't be happy , with her not near me .

she was leaving me and going overseas .

im pangseh-ed in SG -.-

wad a boring place .

flight tml , 6 am in the morning , tuesday .

coming back on , saturday , around 7 plus ,

flights landing .

isin't it fucking long ?!

how can i wait for so long without her sms ?!
and just talke to her in the fone.

gonna get a sms tml morning saying that ,

i have boarded the flight , and going off now

and msg goes on...

so wad im going to do in sg ?

i bet there will be some bitch and bastards who will

fuckingly come and cause problems!

saying ,' ehh u noe , deelan uh , he flirt girls while u were gone !

he damn wad luhh . still wan blog he so loving all .'

fuck u laa hor ?

i see any cheebye who dare say anyhow , i will fucking ,

hammer ur fucking face !

now all i wan is , her to come back as soon as possible !

she must have a safe trip there and back !

baby girl , i'll be waiting for u to come back from ur trip !

iLOVEyou

2009-03-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

sad these few days .

My dearest beloved is going overseas for 5 DAYS !!

i cant even imagine 1 day not smsing her . she said she wan go ther and sms me .

but temptations will make me wana meet her !

so i told her not to bother about smsing me .

if not ltr she ther , than i will feel like i waana see her .

i cant possibly ask her to book a flight back ryt? so i didn't want her to sms me luhhs .

hmm , wish her not to go .

but cant .

i hope she goes ther and don't think of me much .

if she thinks , i don't think she will able to enjoy herself ther .

bii , i don't mean to stop u from going , but im just damn sad luhhs .

u never left me in singapore alone,

this is the first time u're leaving me behind all ,

i have to say is , enjoy yourself there , don't think much abt me alrights?(:

today also when i was with u ,

my mind was thinking all about that .

i lost my mood , but didn't show it out .

than when im suppose to go home in a cab , i walked .

and im sorry .

i know u don't like me walking home alone .

this is how i feel wen u walk home alone .

i kept thinking about your trip wen i was walking home.

hmmm , anyway , enjoy ur trip ther .

alrights?

2009-03-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

ehhs , you cheebye luhhs hor !

knn ! who the fuck are you ?!

u jealous because u cant get the guy u love arh ?!

ur taiji lah !

wan break ppl up for wad ?!

u fucker lah ! only know how to talk alot !

cb ! wan act ahlian arh ?

go find another ahlian to find taiji with luhs !

knn ! wad the hell u wan ?

trying to create problems between me and her ?!

don't u think you are such a bitch in the middle ?

i dont understand why u ppl don't like to see other people happy !

ur family never give u happiness meh ?huh?!

u stupid ungrateful dog !

go find a guy which like u back la !

u stupid dog so loyal meh ?

u are just like his dog !

and who the fuck are u to control him ?!

its his life . and he has the right to decide it .

who are you to come in and decide who he should talk and he should nto ?!

u are just a small piece of rock in his life .

he dont even show u face and yet u are like his tail following him and loving him.

u no brain arh ?!

stupid brainless bitch !

i dare u ever come chap in all this shit !

i will really slap your fucking face !

mayb u jus noe her as a fren or wadever !

so i may keep quiet this time . if the situation gets worse ,

i wont think !