ytd celebrated father's birthday .
dowan to go actually . due to some reason (:
but in the end i went for it .
this are my kuku sisters (:
and this is me . but there alr (: the pool there (:
hahas . sorry cant see my face . was a candid anyway ;x
thats all . didnt take the place all . but the drinks were nice .
one was this . fruit punch .
the drinks were like free flow luhs .
they keep pour my cup till like nvr ending .
hahas . and went to ride . till night . and this was richard .
and there was like a couple here luhs . cannot see the face .
hahas . okays . thats all for ytd . and today not much . did not go skul as it is boring .
went to meet bi . she so cute luhs . dont even know im in her room alr .
hahas . than stay till evening . see alot shit with her . about abortion and ghost .
very sad the abortion .
everyone is advised not to abort a baby .
its a very cruel thing to do . and so . end of the day . gotta go alr (:
peace (:
school is just a waste of time for me .
i study as much as possible but i still can fail .
i dont feel sad over this shits .
but i could not even complete science .
i studied for it like hours an in the end i got a fever -.-
than i could not even do that paper and art .
and today some things happen . im dont even care luhs .
but its like so funny when u hear it .
today during assembly , dunno who put the blue tape on suda ass .
than stuck there for long . and went she found out , she cried -.-
hello . i would have laughed .
but she cried , took it out and called her mother bring her home .
she said she wanted to transfer . thought the girls all will be sad or wad?
but hey , nobody seem to show any emotions . all are happy playing around .
and so , many people are happy on her leaving this class , or should say school .
hahas . i can laugh if i think of that tape on her ass ! HAHAHAHA !
many ppl know this matter alr ? if im not wrong .
so good luck for transfer . hope she transfers . happy ending alr .
im still now like saving for a vaio . hais . its like taking very long .
and its going to cost me about 2k?
and i only now got a pathetic $600 -.-
and for bi ,
im sorry about today .
im getting angry very fast . u should know why luhs .
i got alot of shits in my head . super stressed up .
dunno wad to do with it .
im just sorry luhs for today morning also ):
Even if it takes forever to see.What happiness really means to me.I understand love will always bein perfect harmonybetween you and me.One day you will come to knowthat no matter how far you may gothe joys and sorrows that we shareare just like the touch of your hairwhich is full of tender care.Yet I can only saythis love for you will never decayI love you every single dayand in every sinle way.And it pains me to see you fading away.
miss 2 days exam . i feel all i studied was a waste .
thursday when im suppose to do my exam , in the morning my temparature was 39.4 i guess?
so went to doc in the late morning . went there checked temp again , was the same .
so got a injection on my left arm . still got mark now . cant lift my hand .
and got cough luhs , running nose , sore throat , vomiting and headache .
vomited about more than 5 times alr . some more never eat all plain water .
disgusting luhs .i cant even walk . can u believe a clinic which is just 1 junction away from my house i took cab there?
and than see doc alr , another cab back .
than doc altogether 86 plus .siao wan ryt?
than ytd and today eating porridge )':
feel like dying . today thought can go do art at least also cant . still had fever in the morning .
so did not go to skul today . stayed at hm and slept whole day . smsed bi .
she was walking home . sadded . she purposely wan lo . ask her take from anyone money and go home she dowan ):
than she walked home and smsed me all the way till she reached .
than i was still sleeping at the moment . but did not tell her ;x
ltr she ask me go and sleep . than norvan all calll and msged me ytd .
sorry . no voice . cant pick up the fone . and cant reply . too weak .
thought today will okay , but ... ):
now currently body is boiling once again . ltr for dinner , porridge again .
but not bad also . hahs . now sitting without t-shirt infront of a fan and blogging .
its veryvery cold ! i cant take it anymore ! i feel like huggin my beloved wife .
but she is now at hm . dunno doin wad ?
i wish her to be my side , but its like impossible )':
nvms . hope i cab down to her house on monday .
having some time with her . i just miss her alot !
bi , just enjoy without . if u don't i just feel terribly bad luhs . like because of me than u cant go out all . so just go out and enjoy urself . i will tc myself .
bi , iloveyou luhs .
the days are going faster than i thought . things are changing .
more things are coming into my life . sometime unhappy . actually i always had a wish from bi .
but im not sure it will come true a not ): hope she listens to me and do that luhs .
bi , i dont mean to control u too much .
i just don't want you to go astray . u may nvr know what may happen right?
im just afraid . not that i dont trust . just a fear in my heart .
i wish u to be a good girl to ur parents and me .
i wish to see u graduate from the school u always wanted to go , NAFA .
wish to see u having a good future . even i dont have ,
i want u to have a great future on life . not like my current life .
i always wanted u to live a better life than ur present one .
getting u penthouse liked u wish , getting what u wished for .
now i cant . im not rich enough to give u what u wished for .
but i will try to save . like now , im saving for itouch .
i just want you to get what u liked in life.
things u like , must belong to u .
so bi , pls dont think im controlling u .
i told u this before .
if a guy who dont love u , he would not even care whether u wana pierce all a not?
he would have just asked u go .
i love u too much that i dont want u to spoil ur future .
ur future must be brighter than mine .
so , hope u might have understood whether i just wana control u a not ?
if u think u want more space , u can come and tell it to me .
i wont get angry or wad ?
i want all of ur dreams to come true .
i will be by ur side surpporting u all the way alrights ?
and im sorry , if im controlling u too much.
im really sorry ):
problems are just rolling in my heart like a dice .
people's actions cause me problems .
i just ignore all this stupid problems which makes my life miserable .
read something . was very sad to hear all this . just dunno what to do .
how can i help ? what should i do . i feel im abit useless ):
i dont know what to do right now , but i got a small solution . IGNORE .
thats all i can say for now . nowadays getting my mood spoilt . getting angry easily .
my attitude is changing . sorry if i have attitude any1 i know .
i just feel wierd this few days . bi , u should know luhs.
sorry if i got angry with u or scolded you ):
im trying to change my attitude . its hard , but i got to .
and i will .
i dont know what to say anymore alr luhs. life just sucks this few days .
and had a bad dream .
something bad is gonna happen in my life .
gotta wait for that so called suprise .
my life isnt going the way i want it .
tchers look down on me .
everyone look down on me .
ya , im useless .
good for no fuck . only good for beating ppl up all .
piercing all . good for smsing and all .
parents ya , father like to keep say , i dont even study , come home everyday at 6.
ya la . im always good for nothing . the mrs wee . my maths tcher .
she also in the gang alr .
i will just heackcare all this . i dont care whether u look down or look up all .
my life , my future .
its me who will decide my destiny . who the fuck are u all to comment .
ppl even think im too ugly for bi . its her decision .
hu the fuck are u to call me names and so ?
look in the mirror before talking something .
you now wan step lian hor? go find luhs ahlian all this , go find trouble luhs .
you dare ? you dont think ure a gangster when u are just in ur backyard .
face the real world small girl .
