1 YEAR (:
today is our 1 year anniversary !
how happy can i be on this day ?
was talking to her the night b4 .
she was talking . and we kept telling tml is our 1 year.
than awhile ltr , she said she felt sleepy.
so asked her to sleep in the line.
and as minutes past , she was busy in her wonderland !
so i also didn't make much noise while she sleeping (:
she slept for about an hour plus on the phone . can u imagine that ? i cant luhhs. cause the fone kp ;x
than wa going to 12 alr.
so got ready and send her that msg exactly at 12 am in the morning !
she was still sleeping . her fone had some songs playing in it.
so i listen to it . than i heard her fone ring, cause of my msg luhhs (:
than around 12.16 plus she woke up luhhs (: first she call me i guess?
i was not sure . as her voice was like damn soft luhhs.
so could not hear it.
than i ignore ;x SORRY!
than ltr she called me with a louder voice . and i was going offline at that time .
than she checked the time i guess ? she begun to keep saying sorry !
lol. than i say nvm all this.
than ltr she send me her msg (:
and baby , i wont leave u no matter what ? no worry alrights ?(:
dont worry much ! iloveyou.
hmmm , than both of us went to sleep .
than mornin woke up and come school happily as can sit beside my darlink .
but some childish guys were like talking away for the whole lesson -.-
i got pissed . i got damn angry . and i can hear him laugh so fucking loud !
how long can i tolerate ?! than amanda asked to him to keep quiet .
he still went on , as though he nvr heard anything ! why we would change our place back ?!
and ya , so ltr , that shorty came in and kp luhhs ! knn shorty !
this school as humans with down syndrome ! they just cant control theor fuckinf self !
and i got pissed . i tried to ignore and i did.
but the thing is that , if we talk when we're according to her seating plan ,
she punishes us . but wen we sit ourselves and talk , we gotta sit according to her seating plan -.-
she is like so unfair luhhs ! why her heart pain if we nvr pass ?
our mother meh ? she feed us breast milk uh ?
u cant even afford a gift for a class u wana be a mother to the whole class ?!
your husbank divorce u run away. ltr u like dunkard come sleep at roadside !
stupid women ! only noe how to punish and ask us to copy whtever she shows !
she show her breast also i think must copy lo.
stupid women ! so short , u can control the class ?!
and u stupid 2a1 idiot are being her dog !
1 example is that ducky !
i will nvr be her dog .
from now n after how she have hurt ' ppl '
im going to show her some fucking attitude she never seen before !
my baby 's back yesterday ! but sadly , i cound not even meet her.
her flight was late , and ya , as usual , once it gets late, i can't go out -.-
thought of just going down to meet her.
scared parents ltr come hm alr.
so never luhhs. than was sms-ing her.
she came home , unpacked her things and so.
i was like damn happy she reached back SG safely :DD
and another happy thing will be meeting her the next day which is today (:
see her, hmmmm, wanted to hug her but nvr .
than slowly walk to her house.
go up, she wanted to sleep .
so i went to use com and so.
She was very sweet, as she bought for me stuff (x
iloveher luhhs ! she is like so loving !
than, ya , i wanted to powto someone luhhs. so that person also will have case.
but i was like what the fcuk when there had some error while doing it -.-
wait till i try another time.
fuck all this people alright? i dowan be a stupid getting fcuked everytime !
i also have some rights !
mayb going to email it to fat dog soon.
lets see wad happens.
thier parents will be call and another main dog will come in .
and BREAK BABY !
lol .so get ready with ur emotions(:
anyway , hope to seeing my darlink again tml in school !!
and out again !
hmmm , i think i should end here alr. peaceoutz~
hmmm , 3 days have only pass and i can't take it !
i have nobody to talk to !
who ever i talk ther will be a problem !
how can i ever talk to anyone?
i just need her to come back to SG.
she can't even sms me properly.
a few sms and she vanishes .
have to wait longlong for next sms .
i cant live like this alrights ?
fuck life man !
whenever u try to be really happy ,
there is always an obstacle there for u.
it's whether u have the power to go pass it .
and i guess i don't .
because i just loved her too much !
all i wan is her to come back to SG as soon as possible.
Amanda's leaving tomorrow morning ):
today morning , wakeup , prepare and left house .
straight went to find my beloved .
took a cab down to her house .
she was still sleeping at home .
so i went up myself .
went in her room , she was hugging her boulster and sleeping (x
she damn cute luhhs !
jump on her , asked her to wake up .
she dowan .
beat her on the back ;x
she dumbdumb , hug me and sleep again !
than i also actually sleepy , so i also sshhh abit alr .
slowly close my eyes . than ask her go prepare .
than she go while i sleep .
than ltr ,afta she bath and come out ,
we went down to swimming pool there , than met the rest .
than walk to MRT .
went in met another 2 .
train down to , harbourfront .
intended to got to sentosa .
so head ther , than went for breakfast .
afta that , went out was raining , so trip to ther was cancelled .
so , all hang around in vivo .
go arcade play awhile.
i no mood at that time , trying to be happy .
but whenever i think of it , i just cant be happy anymore .
it's equivalent to someone taking half of my life away .
went out arcade a while to cool down.
baby , came out (:
she talked to me . ask me not to think of it .
u guys might be thinking wad is it .
it will told in the end of the blog .
than arcade , went outside arcade ther , slack a while .
feeling much better luhhs (:
tan all sian , go inside walkwalk .
than all go home .
baby tired wana sleep .
so accompanied her go to her house .
than go ther , she slept a while.
started to think alr .
she also no mood luhhs .
than she was sleeping i guess.
than i was awake form around 6 plus thinking about it .
than 7 plus .mum say dad wan kp . dont care .
than baby ask me go home .
i just didn't wana leave her !
she asked me to go home .
i felt more sad .
i'll be more honest here .
tears came down alrights?
i know its a ps thing for a guy .
i just loved her alot .
i can't be happy , with her not near me .
she was leaving me and going overseas .
im pangseh-ed in SG -.-
wad a boring place .
flight tml , 6 am in the morning , tuesday .
coming back on , saturday , around 7 plus ,
flights landing .
isin't it fucking long ?!
how can i wait for so long without her sms ?!
and just talke to her in the fone.
gonna get a sms tml morning saying that ,
i have boarded the flight , and going off now
and msg goes on...
so wad im going to do in sg ?
i bet there will be some bitch and bastards who will
fuckingly come and cause problems!
saying ,' ehh u noe , deelan uh , he flirt girls while u were gone !
he damn wad luhh . still wan blog he so loving all .'
fuck u laa hor ?
i see any cheebye who dare say anyhow , i will fucking ,
hammer ur fucking face !
now all i wan is , her to come back as soon as possible !
she must have a safe trip there and back !
baby girl , i'll be waiting for u to come back from ur trip !
iLOVEyou
sad these few days .
My dearest beloved is going overseas for 5 DAYS !!
i cant even imagine 1 day not smsing her . she said she wan go ther and sms me .
but temptations will make me wana meet her !
so i told her not to bother about smsing me .
if not ltr she ther , than i will feel like i waana see her .
i cant possibly ask her to book a flight back ryt? so i didn't want her to sms me luhhs .
hmm , wish her not to go .
but cant .
i hope she goes ther and don't think of me much .
if she thinks , i don't think she will able to enjoy herself ther .
bii , i don't mean to stop u from going , but im just damn sad luhhs .
u never left me in singapore alone,
this is the first time u're leaving me behind all ,
i have to say is , enjoy yourself there , don't think much abt me alrights?(:
today also when i was with u ,
my mind was thinking all about that .
i lost my mood , but didn't show it out .
than when im suppose to go home in a cab , i walked .
and im sorry .
i know u don't like me walking home alone .
this is how i feel wen u walk home alone .
i kept thinking about your trip wen i was walking home.
hmmm , anyway , enjoy ur trip ther .
alrights?
ehhs , you cheebye luhhs hor !
knn ! who the fuck are you ?!
u jealous because u cant get the guy u love arh ?!
ur taiji lah !
wan break ppl up for wad ?!
u fucker lah ! only know how to talk alot !
cb ! wan act ahlian arh ?
go find another ahlian to find taiji with luhs !
knn ! wad the hell u wan ?
trying to create problems between me and her ?!
don't u think you are such a bitch in the middle ?
i dont understand why u ppl don't like to see other people happy !
ur family never give u happiness meh ?huh?!
u stupid ungrateful dog !
go find a guy which like u back la !
u stupid dog so loyal meh ?
u are just like his dog !
and who the fuck are u to control him ?!
its his life . and he has the right to decide it .
who are you to come in and decide who he should talk and he should nto ?!
u are just a small piece of rock in his life .
he dont even show u face and yet u are like his tail following him and loving him.
u no brain arh ?!
stupid brainless bitch !
i dare u ever come chap in all this shit !
i will really slap your fucking face !
mayb u jus noe her as a fren or wadever !
so i may keep quiet this time . if the situation gets worse ,
i wont think !
Tag Replies .
Norvan - thanks luhhs . but dunno wad going to happen also .
Fallening - hahax . thanks anyway ! ;D
just got a case afta so long !
wtf ?!
theft case now ! and last year wan . september happen , now than talking abt it .
damn stupid and waste of time ryt?
go find other new cases luhhs . find this stupid theft case .
i find damn stupid . now my case open alr .
haish ! i feel as if i don't have any future any more !
was called down to senkang police station this afternoon .
and ther , i have to see this guy named steven . he is the guy in charge of my case .
first wen ther , go in the investigation room .
den he asked me wad happen all .
i also told all the truth .
den he type out in the com luhhs .
he type damn fucking fast !
than , tell everything . he told me , what i said was all the truth . so i no need worry .
than ltr he ask me cal my father in . so i go call my father in , and i waited outside .
den he tok to my father damn long luhhs .than i waited outside like some dog .
than my father come out call me in also .than go in , he say i have to go for counselling .
but not confirm .
i may have to be brought to court .
according to the guy ,
if now im going for counselling , and my behaviour sucks , i will have to go to court .
and thats the end , boys home !
than 2 years ther ! its hell !
u have no freedom !
its equal to a jail !
u'll have to follow according to thier rules and if u dont ,
ur probation will be extended .
and than , i wont be able to see anymore !
she is the only happines i got left !
and if i go ther, its gone !
i wont be able to see anyone ! until im out .
i dont wish to end up ther . and if u go ther , its hard finding a job next time .
so i seriously dont wish to go ther !
or else my future is gone !
im now waiting for the letter to arrive . the letter is the thing ryt nw ,
which ddecides my fate .
i hope it says i need to go for counselling .
and i must behave myself in school and , mostly the whole of 6 months .
i must not get into any more trouble .
and if i do get another police case , i'll be sent to boys home without any hesitation .
i alr put 1 leg into the coffin . hope i dont need to put another leg inside .
if i do , my life is gone !
tml is the day to decide truly whether , we are mean't to be tgt a not ?
it all depends on her parents .
if her parents ask us to break , than is like , every 1 is asking us to break.
we will start to consider to break or ?
haish . i dunno wad to say alr .
i just realyy hope that Amanda's parents will allow us to be tgt .
if that happens , i'll be the happiest !
but the point is , isit going to happen tml ?
or isit going to happen the other way round?
but , all i have to say .
bii , if every1 ask us to break , im still not going to leave u .
is our love that poor ?
i dont think so .always rmb , the more the difficult situation ,
the more u should try !so ,
no matter how many people ask us to break ,
we must never break and go on !
its our life . in future , they are not going to live it for you ?
so wadever u do , just dont break !
